Enough. Not Enough.

On and on inside the mind and body, there is a fight.

I don't have enough.  I have enough of this, but not enough of that.  I have enough over here but not enough over there.  

I've had enough of connection with this person but I want more connection with that person.  If only....

I have money for this, but not that.  I have love with this person, but why not with that person?  

There is never enough time.  

Why don't I have enough energy?  

But did you notice the few times in the day when there was?  There was plenty of time.  There were moments of lots of energy.  There were moments you were connected.  In flow.  Free.  Moments.  They are always happening.  

The polarities of enough/not enough and lack/overflow circle around steadily in most people.  And with the various phrases that pop up related to these apparent opposites, many of these thoughts can appear as though there are about different things.  

When we distill it down, the seesaw is all one.  The apparent opposites do not really exist but different experiences of ourselves do.  

I feel energetic.

I feel tired.  

I am overflowing.

I feel depleted. 

I am loved.  

I feel alone.  

This similar variance in feelings is once again part of the same mind structure that splits moments and experiences into separates rather than choosing to 'see the whole picture'.   

None of the states, just as none of the specific thoughts is bad or good in and of itself.  The difference between those who are disturbed by 'I feel tired.' or 'I feel alone' or 'I don't have enough' and those who aren't, is a matter of training in what perspective to take and entrained habits in how to detach from a initially upsetting thought.  

You are the canvas that the words get written on.

You are the sky that the feelings float by on.  

All else was acquired.  

What to do?

Keep removing layers that are not you. 

Seek assistance when you want change. 

Gather around those who are happy and at peace.  

It is your nature.  

With love, 

Alexandra